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Neko hide in the rain

So no one actually see he is crying

I'm hide in the darkness

So no one could see my chest actually bleeding

I'm not strong

I just build a tall iron wall to protect my fragile heart

Complain useless

Because it can't bring back my happiness

My heart is still broken fragments

It won't be cured unless I pick it up by myself alone again

Because I knew

She is not around anymore

Except accept this fact silently

Nothing that I can do

I have done my best

I have tried my best to love

I still believe love

But now

I afraid I no more can believe any other people can show me the love I wish

I'm not giving up my heart

But just afraid everything is fake in the end

As I pay so much of heart in the fake that I thought is real..

So... I rather be pathetic and coward

Hide my heart in the safety place

Wish the hurt will never repeat again

I find no one who can really keep my heart nicely

Still... no one...

Those three people I trusted so much before...

All have failed me... left my heart fallen with no mercy...

I don't want to let more people to fail me...

I afraid in one day...

I can never trust again... I can never love again...

I can never be myself again...

I'm not strong... I'm not cool...

Just those past build me up a high iron wall

That blocks external damage

But also, keep me in an alone region.

I wish I will found the light

But why is my heart feel so dark even so much I have tried...?

Still... I can barely see the light...