Someday I will gone

I don't know how long can I hold in this world
If I really having such a disease
It will strike me down at any moment without notification
Without any chance for me to speak my last word
So... I think it's better I record it down...
Before any bad thing really happened right? XD

To Dad,
Dad, you have work so hard for us
Even you can't give me what I want
Or even you can't give me what you should give me
But never mind, you're really doing your best for us...
I can see it... So I won't blame you...
As I live in this kind of family...
It makes me stronger than others...
It makes me independent than others...
Even compare to others I might not have anything better than them...
But at least, all the things I have, I earn by myself...
And thanks to your teaching over all my life time...
Sorry that I can't do anything to you...

To Mum,
Although I feel sometimes you're just annoyed
Sometimes you like to ask something you will not understand
But as I have answered your question you are just like to ask repeatedly
Sometimes you just don't believe me that I actually know better than you and dad
You just keep say me overrate myself
But I know... the fact is you are really care about me...
I know you just don't want me to get into trouble...
Even you are not working
But I know you're really tired with the housework
We treat you like a maid most of the times
But you know... sometimes I did want to help...
But I'm just too lazy la... sorry la mum~~ xD
(Anyway I did help sometimes right? =P)
Even though I said that your cook is not healthy, oily and fat...
But actually no matter how, those are the best food I have tasted in my life!!!

To Elder Bro,
I don't know how are you going in KL
Although we keep argue last time
But I still remember that you treat me so good at the kid time
Even I still don't know why you changed so much after you go to secondary
Anyway... You are my elder bro forever...
Wish you really live a good life in KL la...
And please... Come back often ah...
I think dad and mom miss you sometimes...
Anyway they're still your parents even you are quite isolated in family...
Don't forget our kid time we once happy together right?

To Younger Bro
Oi~ Don't play too much game la~
In the end you will walk on the wrong path that I walk before you know?
Me always ask you to study English ah
That must come in handy someday d!!
Don't always treat my words as wind ah!
If I have gone, you have to take on the responsible for the family already you know?
You see you so clever in console game
I know you're not stupid liao d
You still my bro right? You won't be much different with me d!
Just you haven't open your mind only xD
Anyway, take care la, my forever and ever lovely bro
If I gone no matter will beat your head and ask you to massage anymore
Don't miss that I always bully you ah~ xD

To Younger Sis,
Mei I think you're the only one who can be the best student in our family ady le
Don't waste your talent ah~~
You should know now knowledge is important for girl ady
With knowledge you don't have to rely on guy anymore
And ya don't go find someone who will treat you badly to be your bf ah in future
If I see it I sure phek cek d!!! xD
Don't know what to say with you la anyway you have to take care also la
Don't act like a tomboy la like that later no guy want you ley xD

To the one I love and care,
If this day is come
I have to go no matter how
Please take care yourself
Don't let me worry about you ^^
Before I might make you sad, angry or feel annoyed
I apologize to you...
Maybe it's caused by me too love you and immature...
I too desired to have you...
In the end I did a lot of malicious action...
Anyway... I wish within my life time...
I really did brought you some happiness...
That you will remember forever...
No matter what I did...
I just wish to see your angel smile...
Remember to be happy and always ya...
Sorry if this day is come, I can't accompany you anymore lo... ^^

Please read this, if you hurt by love

Read it with all of your heart
(No matter you're male or female)
♥ = someone you love

You used to wake ♥ up every morning
If ♥ sleep lately you will scold him/her
Because you worry about ♥ hang out with ♥ friend overnight
You dislike ♥ sleep lately unless you're beside ♥

When ♥ bad mood, you will pujuk ♥, cheer ♥ up
♥ don't eat breakfast you will be angry
Because you feel that breakfast is important for ♥'s health

Everynight you will make a call with ♥ before ♥ sleep

When ♥ face any problem at outside you will hug ♥ and comfort ♥

You always let her lie on your shoulder when you two watch tv in home

Everytime you two argue you must be the one who apologize first no matter you're right or not,
then pujuk ♥ back... (and a lot more)

But in the end ♥ still want to leave you away, you have no idea...

♥ only treat you as a passerby who treat ♥ very good in ♥ life
♥ won't feel you're so impress ♥
And you're not that one ♥ love the most
How ♥ will remember you? care about you?

Sometimes you don't think so much,
You just want to treat ♥ the best with all your heart,
Because you really love ♥ so much

But, in the end ♥ still want to leave you away...
What can you do...??

This is not your fault, is ♥

Frankly, ♥ can has how many gf/bf, can treat ♥ like you do?
So tolerate ♥? So empathize ♥? So love ♥?
Let's think about it, is ♥ who don't appreciate you,
That is not your lost but ♥!
Because you're someone who love ♥ so much!!
Anyway you can just find another one
(of course as ♥ gone away you will feel hurt and miss ♥ a lot)

At different place there will be different people will be appeared
And so there must be different people who will waiting for you
Why you have to be sad for such a people who hurt you?

You hide at the corner crying, you alone, you lonely, you feel so hurt and sad, even it makes you change so much
Would ♥ know all about this?
♥ now might be so happy when sms with another person
But look on yourself, you're crying?
♥ don't love you, ♥ won't find you anymore
Even you can do everything for ♥， ♥ don't love you, no matter what you do ♥ won't feel touching, instead, ♥ feels you're annoying.

Why you still being so stupid?
Why you still do so much for ♥?
♥ won't sympathy you, won't feel you're pity, because ♥ already have another one who accompany ♥
Then do you think ♥ will still care about you?

Even you sms ♥, ♥ also won't reply you so much, sometimes even don't reply you
Then you， issit you want to keep waiting for ♥ reply?
Wait one day? two day? What do you get in the end?
Still the same, ♥ still no reply you.
Last time, ♥ will reply no matter how busy is ♥
But now? Why ♥ didn't find you anymore?

Let's me tell you... Because ♥ has another person accompany ♥ already
That another person maybe have already sms with ♥ when you and ♥ still together
Maybe that another person is a pretty girl/handsome boy,
Somemore treat ♥ very good, very care of ♥
Maybe they always hang out together behind of you
Let's think about it... Will ♥ find you anymore?

You might tell yourself...
"I will wait for ♥" (although it seems like so great)
But have you think about it?
If you wait for 1 or 2 years...
♥ still don't want to come back?

Maybe within this period...
Someone likes/loves you...
But you tell him/her...
"I'm waiting for ♥" and reject him/her...
Isn't it means that you wasted that 1 or 2years times and youth?
Does it worth you to do that...?

Maybe few years after...
♥ come back again...
Of course you will be very happy...
And ♥ will always beside you like last time...
This means a good thing for you, it's happy...

But... Do you ever think that why ♥ come back suddenly?
Because...
♥ found no people accompany ♥ anymore...
♥ feels so boring, ♥ want to find something to kill ♥'s boredsome
Then, finally ♥ think about you, how good you treat ♥ last time...
♥ might tell you that ♥ still love you or something like that...
But actually... ♥ found no person willing to accompany ♥ anymore...
♥ found no person can be rely anymore...
No person wants ♥ anymore...
This doesn't mean that ♥ still love you...
Just ♥ want somebody to accompany ♥...

If ♥ really love you... ♥ come back early ago already...
Do you need to wait for 1 to 2years?

Try to ask yourself again...
Is this something you called as "love"...?

You lost ♥, you still have many many friends will accompany you...
They will intro you a lot of guys/girls to you...
Yourself alone hides in the home is useless...
Sad, hurt, tear, love, miss, they will always flowing around you...
Just hang out with your friends more and more, even though just to has a tea tarik~
Because, stay lonely... can never help you to forget someone you loved the most...

Tell yourself!!
♥ just a little part of your memories...
♥ won't see your tears drop...
Because inside ♥'s heart... there is no existence of you...

You still young
Still have much times...
To find someone better...

*Thanks for read*

Don't doubt, it's translated from Internet =P

Sad Case

They are innocents...
Sigh...
You both are ex-police and policemen...
Why...?

Talented ^^

We complain about our life unstoppable...
But looks... What have he done while we are complaining? ^^

Medical Report

I took my report this morning
I not really worry other organs in my body
But my heart has shown many sign to me that it is not healthy

Well even the heart area every data shown I'm under the risky level
Doctor said overall I'm still okie
But as I thought
I can't be just feel easy for that
Every data of the heart area almost risk the risky level
The risky level is about 50
I get 49
It means if I still don't take care of my diet
I might get heart attack soon

I think, the heartache must be caused by my blood stuck
I told doctor the problem I faced
The doctor ask if I want can take further check in the hospital
And also show the report to the hospital doctor...
The blood test is not enough... I have to check the ECG and so-on...

I afraid one day I might leave suddenly....
But before that....
I wish I can complete all the thing I wish to do....
So I can leave with no regret...
It's no time to feel sad now... ^^

Smiley Dream

Dunno why
My dream included you again
Inside you smile like an angel
The smile I will never forget
So pure and cute...
It reminds me every smile scene of yours in my mind...
I really miss your smile so much...

This life we might not able to be together...
But if I'm able to be human next life...
I hope my next life you will live along with me...

This is called as ""Truth Love"

Girl : "LeiLei,open the box when you miss me,I've saved all of my love inside the box and I'll never bring it away.Dad said that we'll be coming back when the situation is getting better.You must wait for me..."
Boy : "I won't go anywhere else but wait you at here...if you can't see me at here,try to look for me at the school..."
Girl : "It is too late!i must have to go now!i'll write to you,you must wait for me,wait for me..."
Boy : "I won't go anywhere else but wait you at here..."

Ella : "is that what so-called 'the oath that never faded'?"
Selina : "The love between them at that time was so deep!It is just like other than just love,there is a kind of responsibility."
Hebe : "it is so hard to understand this kind of firm belief...how much do I wish I were she,so that I could meet a guy who loves me that much."
Ella : "But...No matter how firm they hold their belief,they can't escape from the rapidly changing great era..."

1989 Taipei
Son : "Mum,I've found it..."
Mum : "What is it?"
Son : "I've found...I've found him...He is still alive...living alone for all these years..."
Son : "Mum,are you okay?"

(The lady,sitting at the room and sighing...thinking of the past...)
Boy : "I want us to be in this way for whole of my life...Why,don't you have the same thought as mine,do you?"
Girl : Emmm...I do,but I want it for more longer,longer than a lifetime..."
Boy : "We will be together for a lifetime,for a few lifetimes.For every lifetime,no matter where you will be, you must wait for me until the time I've found you..."

Lady : "I want to see him...anyway...it has been such a long time..."

Selina : "So,she really goes to find him in Shanghai all alone?She is so brave..."
Ella : "Ya,if I were she,I would do like that as well.40 years have past...of course I would like to know how does he look like now..."
Hebe : "Do you think he has been alone for all these years just because of her?"
Ella : "Ya...it's for sure..."

2004 Shanghai
(A part of the song lyric...)
I love you, I'd dare to face any fate which is as yet unknown.
I love you, I'm willing to let you protect me, at the ends of this world.
Sometimes I really don't understand you, yet who truly understands themselves.
Often the depth of the relationship between two people, is tested and proven through hurt and hardships.

Selina : "For the past 40 years,he holds his belief of her love by using only the wooden box,but why then she doesn't wait for him?"
Ella : "The women at that time must get married no matter how.May be she gets some pressure from her family,too!"
Hebe : "Some more,there is no hope for her to go back."
Selina : "Finally,they see each other..."

Boy : "Don't be afraid whenever you are in trouble,I won't leave you..."
Girl : "I must follow you no matter where you go..."

(At the clock tower)
Man : "I afraid you can't find me,so I have been teaching at the school for all these years."
Lady : "You must have known that...we...why don't you get married?"
Man : "I have promised you for a few lifetimes,and it is not only this lifetime..."

(At the tea house)
Man : "How are you doing for these years?"
Lady : "Ya...not bad...my husband treats me very well,and I've got 3 sons as well as a grandson."
Man : "This...you have alredy told me that in the previous letter."
Lady : "Oh...right.But,for all these years...I am only worrying about you..."
Man : "You look healthy..."
Lady : "Sigh, I have become older then before.Time flies,we have become old..."

(Home)
Son : "Dad,do you want some more?"
Dad : "i am full,take your time."

Man : "When I am down,I will take a look at it(the wooden box which is given by the young girl). My mood will get better after looking at it.Actually you haven't leave me for all these years...But...I am not dare to open it anyway..."
Lady : "Why don't you open it?"
Man : "Because...I afraid once I open it...you will leave me forever and ever..."

Selina : "What have they do now?"
Hebe : "Everyone seems tobe in suffer."
Ella : "Um..."
Selina : "They should feel better after seeing each other and there won't be any regret for them."
Ella : "Em...they have seen each other and known that he/she is doing well,so she goes back to Taipei in the next day."
Hebe: "What about after she has home?How is she gonna tell her husband about this?"
Ella : "She says..."

Lady : "You let me go back,let me pay what I owe to him..."

Ella : "Uncle Wong has made a decision,he decided to let her go back to him.He has even brought a house and give the money to her to be her marriage present..."
Selina :"This kind of love is really heart-touching..."
Hebe : "Uncle Yan is more greater,he has been using almost all of his lifetime for waiting for her."
Ella : "I think,they are the people who understand 'love' the most."

Lady : "You must take good care of yourself."
Husband : "You too..."

Young girl : "I love you!"

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I can never do this...
But this can teach people how to love truthfully... ^^
(It's a real story oh!!~~ ^^)

Do you still remember how to smile? ^^

(Note: Remember close my music player ya XD)



Don't talk...
Silence...
And watch this...
Sometimes we no need a sound ^^
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People said, ladies smiles is their prettiest time...

Love is just like DotA..

"A real man just like Roshan
No matter how much times he been hurt
He can still able to stand up
However he still gift his aegis to someone who hurt him"

Where you beside me
I'm happy...

Ermm...
Don't know what to say...
Headache...

See how = No way

"see how, depends my mood."
"I lazy do this and that"
okie...
I give up...
I really don't want to see your mood...
Really tired when I hear that...
It's really a terrible word for me now
Frankly speaking, I AFRAID THAT...
囧....
You make my mood damn bad once I hear that...
Issit so hard to hang out with me?
Haiz... sigh...
I don't want to see your mood... okie?
I don't want to see how it swings without a reason
I don't want to feel that you just don't want to hang out with me

Okie...
I give up....
I give up on invite you...
So tired to invite you...
10 times 10 reject... Sorry la it's too hard to accept it...

Life Decision

Now is 4.50am
Just back from my father shop

Today
Everything is just too rush
Yee Chong's push me to decide earlier with the job
I just no prepare yet for it
Even it sounds attractive for the post
But yet, I understand something deeper than it
Which makes me less interest for it

It takes up almost whole my brain to figure out what should I choose
And it even caused me unable to sleep tonight
Although I was ready everything to sleep at 12am

I know, I just need someone to talk
Someone that will tell me something meaningful to clear my mind
I go to One Station, find for that girl again
I know she won't tell me any useful thing, but I just someone to talk

Accidentally, I met my elder brother type friends
Seven and Sotong, they told me that what should I do
They show the future for me, and why I shouldn't go for SP
And hell yeah... I quite agree with them...
In the end I never talk with that girl although she keep caress my head
I met somebody who is much meaningful and helpful to me...

But still... I still don't feel sleepy...
Suddenly... I change the road I take that originally go back my home
To my father shop...
I feel, I should tell him these...

Dad, should I say that I'm really your son?
Your thinking are so similar with me...
What you said to me, I can find no place to disagree
Actually, I already know what I want...
But dad, you made me clear indeed...
To tell me what I want, from other mouth...

Why I have to wasted my ability
To manage an internet cafe? To manage a computer shop?
In the end I'm still working for others
Salary is low, much dangerous, and less thing to eat
In the deepest of my heart, I have already know that bring me no future?
Just that post really attract me...
But it just an illusion...
A manager which has no money, a boss that don't own a shop by himself...
In the end I still working for other!! what is the different!?
somemore it doesn't bring me the chance to rise up into much higher place
Why do I have to do so? I have studied 2.5years for diploma!

Thx Dad, thx Seven, thx Sotong...
I think...
I found my way now... ^^

Try to do something to make you happy
But seem like I'm just not the one who could make it

Just wish that I can still do anything for you
Before everything is too late

But I think the end
Leave you away should be the best for me to you
As I might annoyed you
I better keep silent

That might be my biggest care to you
I can't make you happy
But at least not make it worst

As I don't feel good when I know I can't do anything
But make it worst someone...

Sigh... I really wish you will be happy like when I see you...
Why can't you just smile like when you see me?
I really wish to see you smile once again...

Or... Should I just leave you there?
Sigh... why I have to come to such stage?

Today I'm accidentally be an idiot again
Hahaha...
Smirk is what can I do...
No?

Oh no...
I cried again...
I ask myself not to cry...
I pass myself a tissue to wipe my tear...
All have to do by myself...

Erm? What do you expect?
Nobody will cure your heart
But only yourself can do

I know I know
It sad you broke the heart by other
But you have to patch it back by yourself

But you ah...
Really stupid
Why you always pass the heart to someone you shouldn't?
That is your problem ma after all...
You can blame no one la...

Get up get up...
Patch your heart back
Before anyone can see your heart broken once again
It's shame you know? for a guy like you
Please la, care about your pride la~ xD

Thx...
But can it be a little bit longer...?
I miss that feeling...

I don't understand

I don't understand too
Not only you

Since we both know
What is bad
What is good

Why
You still love the bad thing
I'm still repeat the thing hurt me

Like example
You told me
Everything start from bad
Yea
I have start from bad too
I know you have start from bad too
So it's time to go for good
So I treat you my best
But instead, you have done the bad thing to me
You repeat the bad thing now
But you have the reason, because you have Calvin already

But comes to this situation
You know Calvin treat you better than Jessica
Why you leave Calvin and go for a bad thing who hurts you?
This is quite weird here...
Don't you should choose for the good thing?
Since Calvin is your real boyfriend
You are having double standard
Calvin treat you well， but you choose Jessica
I treat you well, but you choose Calvin and Jessica
Really don't understand

You know what is bad,
But you keep continue repeat the bad thing?
Erm... Weird...

You keep say
"Nobody ask you to be perfect" To me
But
Isn't you keep complain?
The goal you complain isn't wish that one you complain will be better?
Or you just complain for fun?
Weird...
Like you complain Jessica
You don't wish her treat you better at all?
You just want to complain that's all?
I don't think so, you're asking people to be perfect too

I love you
Because you let other people hurt before
I thought you understand the feeling of hurt
So you won't hurt me as you know how it feels like.
But just, I'm wrong, you are just like the other people who keep repeat the fault.

We always complain this world is corrupted
But do we really not involved inside the corruption?
I dare to say
I don't, because I do my best to cure the corruption
But in the end I'm hurt by the effort I paid
And sooner because the despair I gains I'm going involve in the corruption
But can you say you don't ruin the world?
Because if like what you said to me and what you done to me
You're the one who ruins this world too

Hold you read this
And understand
Because someday
You might feel the same feel as I'm feeling right now also
What comes around, goes around

I'm happy that you feel guilty that day
Because that's the owner I know
But
She just gone away so fast
She is the one who really happy and able to make me smile

You're not, you're not happy
You should know yourself
You're actually feeling lonely and hurt inside too
You can't listen to me
Because you will think what I said means you
But actually, it's truth
Because you're one of the people that destroy all the good thing I try hard to build

Cry... non-stop crying
As I must stop my love to someone I love...

This is not what I want...
This is really something not I want...
I want to love you...
I want to love you so much...

Why?
Am I doing not good enough?

Please
I don't wanna to write any sad blog anymore...
Please...
I just want to be happy...
Please...

Why in the end
Everyone leaves?

4years
I can wait
As long as it is worth
I will wait ^^

Future Plan

After all the stories passed away
After I have given up on my plans for years
I'm start on my new life again
I'm start to plan again for my future
I'm start to believe again in future

So here areeeeee my newwwwwwww plans~
After all the time I go through
I understand my plan shouldn't depends on single person anymore
And also most important is don't let it depends on your partner!!
We will never know when they will change their mind!!
Don't make your plan depends on other!!
Then the success and failure rate of your plan left unknown!!
You will left your future vague!!

Even though, we are not and shouldn't alone
Sometimes is good to stick with other too
Group achievement is way better than self achievement ^^
Some of the plans below may include other people
But as well as it involved other people
I won't really expect much and it must be succeed like last time
Just believe it, that's all I do ^^

Independent Plans:
1.Work in Station One as Assistant Supervisor
(This is less favorite now because the true goal for it
Is to help that girl who is not worth for me to help.
A plan which is related to love, quite troublesome.
Anyway it can gains some experience for management area,
it's good for my future too. So I just included it inside my plan.)

2.Work in Komputer Megastore as Technician/Sales
(As what I wish last time, go back my old working place
And learn everything I can learn over there to gains experience
It will be a nice place for me though, just depends whether I want or not xD
But I wish to earn money faster, so this is still considering
As I have to take 1~2years to stay over there.)

3.Amway
4.Prudential Insurance
(These two might be the good way to earn fast money
But problem is I'm lack of friends right now
It's harder for me to start for now
So I just left this plan behind until I feel it's the right time)

5.Computer Service
(As long as I get any computer who want to repair xD)

~Update afterward for Dependant Plans!!~

I like when she said "sayang you" after I help her
Hope she is really telling the truth
Expect to be with her so muchhhhh
Hehehe XD

New life gonna being with you~~
Please God really give me a new chance
I will do all my best to catch the chance this time

Please show me she is someone I should love~~ ^^

Last Day

Today is the last day in the college
Finally this day has reached
I have waited for 2years and half to embrace this day
But
It doesn't as happy as I expected...

Last year until now
I live quite a confuse life...
I take around 1 year to overcome such a confusion
It's not really 100% recovered now
But at least
I have control on myself again
Only I have to rest some days
Go somewhere
Do what I wish do what I want

I have spent too much time on a lot of stupid love event
I have wasted too much time to treat other better but suffer myself
But I know I can't blame any other
Because this is the path I choose
Although I have forsaken everything of me
That's what I choose to be

I'm kidding with my studies life
The diploma certificate I will get is a low grade
But since I have done such a thing
I should don't look back now

This is the last day I left in college
And the new day I gonna being on the new life

So don't look back now
It's time to step forward
Left all the sorrow behind my back
I will redemption my fault with my future days!

Secrets

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess
Til' all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw wink, no
I've been on the brink, so

+Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away+

My god, amazing how we got this far
It's like we're chasing all those stars
Who's driving shiny big black cars
And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Singing straight, too cold
I don't really like my flow, no, so

repeat +

Oh, got no reason, got not shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'mma tell you everything

*So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away*

repeat *
All my secrets away, All my secrets away

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My life is getting fucking boring
So tell me what you want to know
Like all those time
I gonna give my secret away
And start another one new life

Bury

Golden Lock that marks our history
It's time to rest in the treasure box
I will carry you no more

No matter how tight I hold it in my hand
No matter how deep the words carve on the surface
It's all past and history now

No matter how much of happiest we possess before
It must be let go once it becomes sadness

My dream once realized
I once hugged and kissed you

No matter how long it has passed
It doesn't stop my tears when I remind the love on you again
Although how much I desire I can love you once again
But I know it's impossible
We both have to move on to the different path

I allow my heart to break once more
Before the Golden Lock drop into my treasure box
And bury in the past

After this
I wish not to remember I'm Coconut before
I wish not to remember I'm Neko before
All those memories
Please don't be remind again

I wish
This is one last cry for you
I have taken so long time and wasted so much thing to used to the days without you
I wish not to return to the sadness days once more

You know what I need
But we both know
Mushroom and owner-sama have leave
They will never return anymore
I don't want be alone and wait for them
I have cried so much
I have begged so much

I want to be happy
Even without you
I want to love myself more now

If you don't love, please leave

If you don't love that people
Please leave
That's the best of the worst for them

Because they know they love you
But they can't have you

You stay with them
They will still love you
Do everything for you
Even that hurts them much
They won't complain
But they will live their days in hell because of your selfishness

You have already be selfish for once
Please don't be selfish for more
Please don't hurt them anymore

You still expect people treat you so good when you don't want to give anything?
You might enjoy the goodness they gave you
But do you ever notice the tear that fall behind their smiley mask?

If you really love them
Don't leave them
But if you don't
Please leave
You might feel a little bit sad for lost a great friend
But how can your sorrow compare to those who lost their love?

You shoulda know
From the time you choose to leave them in vain
From the time you choose to break their heart
You should already took the risk to lost their greater love on you too

If a guy/girl you love just in front of you
But you know
No matter how much you do
No matter how deep you love
No matter how people hurt them
You will never have them
How will you feel?

Please
Don't be so selfish
You don't love
But people do
You might feel happy with unpaid gift
You might feel happy with no give but still gain
But how much effort that a person has to pay to buy you a gift?
But how much tears that a person has to fall behind to make you smile?
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People always ask, why can't a lover be a friend after broke?
But do you notice? Those who ask this question
Mostly are those who choose to leave at first

If you really understand how they are feeling
You will never ask the same question anymore

Some of those couples can be friend after broke
But do they really happy?
Or do they really love each other before?

As I know
A person can never be friend again with who s/he really loves
Because
Nothing can be harder than you have to hide all of the sorrow within you
And act smile in front of who you love

Because
If you love that person,
make them unhappy means the most evil thing for you
But they don't love you,
they won't think about this, they won't care about this
So in the end?
You will being a stupid who bears all the pain by yourself

Why have to live such suffer days?
Sometimes leave is better than anything you can do
Because you know you can't do anything anymore

Hate Documentation

After graduate
I must not face computer for one month if no needed
I swear!
Damn hate the computer screen now
Damn hate typing the keyboard right now~~

Ahh~~ I want go out play basketball la T_T

Parallel Lines 平行线

不過是暫時擱淺　受過的傷終能復原
找新的起點　從今天 不想再把路繞遠
卻總是擦肩　總是心中描繪的畫面
遇不上一個對的人實現　怎麼找到永遠
卻總是忽略　忽略身邊平凡的一切
去追逐不切實際的明天　繼續和真愛走在平行線

Found this few lines of lyric is meaningful
As we always pursuit the dream we picture in our mind
If there's always lack of someone to realize it
How long that we have to spend or wait to achieve our dream?

Or just
We always pursuit for the unrealistic dream in our mind
Pass over the one who care about us truthfully
So that the end we just live in the vain?

Maybe at that time we will say
"I won't regret"
But as the time passing over
Our lifespan left much little and little
Finally we will found that we're wrong

Don't let that day happened my friend
If you really have the good thing
Cherish, and appreciate
Don't say you cherish, appreciate, and love when you don't
You must do it, instead of saying
Don't always left those who care about you and love you
On the other parallel line
So close but will never has a connection with your path

It might be too late
When you regret
Don't let that day comes to you okie?

Don't live in vain
Unrealistic dream not worth for you to pursuit


Don't you (O) always left X and Y (Those who love and care about you)
Over the other parallel line ok?

Don't Let Your Chance Lost Away

Yesterday might be lost
But today is a new start
Always believe tomorrow is a better day

People passby everyday
Some who already passed
No point for you to waste your strength to hold them down
You know you can never catch the past
But you have the power to build your days ahead
No matter if it succeed or don't
You have to try
So that you will not regret in the future

Time, it won't flow back
And fortunately
Because it doesn't have to repeat

Time gone
Memories stay
Maybe it causes some sorrow and grieve for your entire life
But that's your life evidence
It proves that you once lives

Friends leave
Lover leave
Because it's the time
For you to have a new life
A life to have true friend
A life to have true lover
A true friend, they will never leave you
A true lover, they will never abandon you
Those who leave
Is worthless for you to keep

Keep some real friends
Hold your true lover
Quality always better than quantity

Do you found those? My friend?
Remember, if you already have those, you're lucky
Don't let your luck goes away.
Some chances, only arise once in your life.