Envy...

"Why u disappointed me too?"

Huh...? Why my tear fall down when I send this message?

*Sniff sniff*

*Tissue wipe away*

I have already know who you are...

And I understand you will never be the one I wish...

But maybe...

In the deeper of my heart...

I still hope you're the one who won't disappoint me...

That's why he feels sad...

A real hurt inside my heart...

That can never be denied...

I'm not blame...

I really don't...

But just sigh...

Why you are the another one who failed my hope...

I just wish you're different than Chris and Phei Chi...

Why I'm so down again...?

Maybe... I just so envy of you...

You are having all the things I wanted for so long

I have done for so much...

Just to get those things you have now...

Maybe it's shame a guy compare with a girl...

But just I feel so angry and unfair...

This girl she does nothing much in my eyes...

How can her deserved so much?

Still she wants to blame so much...

And I did everything my best...

Why I have nothing at all in the end?

I can't blame at all because I feel it's childish...

So ridiculous... I even envy on you in the end...

I still believe...

I will deserved the real happiness in the end...

God... Wish you will see me...

I'm still doing my best...

You're the one I care

But...

Can't deny that...

I have already treat you the same like other...

Just the another rubbish...

And I feel sad...

Because I really wish...

You will not be rubbish in my mind...

But what to do...

You did all the things I hate...

Even I loved you so much...

I want to treat you so good also...

The bad image you left in my mind...

It will never fade away...

And you didn't even try to erase it off...

You didn't even cherish the relationship I try my best to last...

You know? You hurt me before...

And I try my best to forgive you...

Don't ask me to forget...

Unless you able to move the scar on my heart...

It will always be there...

You understand it...

I just able to forgive you once slashed on my heart...

But I can't rub off the scar on my heart...

Because I love you so much before...

Sorry Felicia

I keep run away from the fact...

I love you but...

I know...

I can't forget how these two girls hurt me still...

And I always doubt you will do the same on me...

You ask me not to do that but...

I really can't...

That's why... you feel unsafe...

And run away from me...

Maybe... I'm the one who really hurt you...

I'm the one who really failed you...