Someday I will gone

I don't know how long can I hold in this world
If I really having such a disease
It will strike me down at any moment without notification
Without any chance for me to speak my last word
So... I think it's better I record it down...
Before any bad thing really happened right? XD

To Dad,
Dad, you have work so hard for us
Even you can't give me what I want
Or even you can't give me what you should give me
But never mind, you're really doing your best for us...
I can see it... So I won't blame you...
As I live in this kind of family...
It makes me stronger than others...
It makes me independent than others...
Even compare to others I might not have anything better than them...
But at least, all the things I have, I earn by myself...
And thanks to your teaching over all my life time...
Sorry that I can't do anything to you...

To Mum,
Although I feel sometimes you're just annoyed
Sometimes you like to ask something you will not understand
But as I have answered your question you are just like to ask repeatedly
Sometimes you just don't believe me that I actually know better than you and dad
You just keep say me overrate myself
But I know... the fact is you are really care about me...
I know you just don't want me to get into trouble...
Even you are not working
But I know you're really tired with the housework
We treat you like a maid most of the times
But you know... sometimes I did want to help...
But I'm just too lazy la... sorry la mum~~ xD
(Anyway I did help sometimes right? =P)
Even though I said that your cook is not healthy, oily and fat...
But actually no matter how, those are the best food I have tasted in my life!!!

To Elder Bro,
I don't know how are you going in KL
Although we keep argue last time
But I still remember that you treat me so good at the kid time
Even I still don't know why you changed so much after you go to secondary
Anyway... You are my elder bro forever...
Wish you really live a good life in KL la...
And please... Come back often ah...
I think dad and mom miss you sometimes...
Anyway they're still your parents even you are quite isolated in family...
Don't forget our kid time we once happy together right?

To Younger Bro
Oi~ Don't play too much game la~
In the end you will walk on the wrong path that I walk before you know?
Me always ask you to study English ah
That must come in handy someday d!!
Don't always treat my words as wind ah!
If I have gone, you have to take on the responsible for the family already you know?
You see you so clever in console game
I know you're not stupid liao d
You still my bro right? You won't be much different with me d!
Just you haven't open your mind only xD
Anyway, take care la, my forever and ever lovely bro
If I gone no matter will beat your head and ask you to massage anymore
Don't miss that I always bully you ah~ xD

To Younger Sis,
Mei I think you're the only one who can be the best student in our family ady le
Don't waste your talent ah~~
You should know now knowledge is important for girl ady
With knowledge you don't have to rely on guy anymore
And ya don't go find someone who will treat you badly to be your bf ah in future
If I see it I sure phek cek d!!! xD
Don't know what to say with you la anyway you have to take care also la
Don't act like a tomboy la like that later no guy want you ley xD

To the one I love and care,
If this day is come
I have to go no matter how
Please take care yourself
Don't let me worry about you ^^
Before I might make you sad, angry or feel annoyed
I apologize to you...
Maybe it's caused by me too love you and immature...
I too desired to have you...
In the end I did a lot of malicious action...
Anyway... I wish within my life time...
I really did brought you some happiness...
That you will remember forever...
No matter what I did...
I just wish to see your angel smile...
Remember to be happy and always ya...
Sorry if this day is come, I can't accompany you anymore lo... ^^