Life Decision

Now is 4.50am
Just back from my father shop

Today
Everything is just too rush
Yee Chong's push me to decide earlier with the job
I just no prepare yet for it
Even it sounds attractive for the post
But yet, I understand something deeper than it
Which makes me less interest for it

It takes up almost whole my brain to figure out what should I choose
And it even caused me unable to sleep tonight
Although I was ready everything to sleep at 12am

I know, I just need someone to talk
Someone that will tell me something meaningful to clear my mind
I go to One Station, find for that girl again
I know she won't tell me any useful thing, but I just someone to talk

Accidentally, I met my elder brother type friends
Seven and Sotong, they told me that what should I do
They show the future for me, and why I shouldn't go for SP
And hell yeah... I quite agree with them...
In the end I never talk with that girl although she keep caress my head
I met somebody who is much meaningful and helpful to me...

But still... I still don't feel sleepy...
Suddenly... I change the road I take that originally go back my home
To my father shop...
I feel, I should tell him these...

Dad, should I say that I'm really your son?
Your thinking are so similar with me...
What you said to me, I can find no place to disagree
Actually, I already know what I want...
But dad, you made me clear indeed...
To tell me what I want, from other mouth...

Why I have to wasted my ability
To manage an internet cafe? To manage a computer shop?
In the end I'm still working for others
Salary is low, much dangerous, and less thing to eat
In the deepest of my heart, I have already know that bring me no future?
Just that post really attract me...
But it just an illusion...
A manager which has no money, a boss that don't own a shop by himself...
In the end I still working for other!! what is the different!?
somemore it doesn't bring me the chance to rise up into much higher place
Why do I have to do so? I have studied 2.5years for diploma!

Thx Dad, thx Seven, thx Sotong...
I think...
I found my way now... ^^