Miss You

Every people live their path

Every people live their path

Some people can't make it

Doesn't mean you can't do it

Don't have to care about what people talks

Just do your best!

Even with no good end

At least you can say you have tried!

Rather than those who never try

And just stand there complain

I complain

And I have the right to do so!

That's what I'm proud on myself

I will be strong and stronger

One day even I don't get a good end

I won't complain

I will keep it all in myself

And step ahead

That day

I will be a really tough one

This world is too pathetic

Even it's taking my life

I won't surrender myself to this pathetic world

If that's must

I rather suicide

That's all

That's me

Everyone live their own path

And I'm born to live the different one

I know someday I will meet someone like me

Who can hold my hand and walk the same path with me

And I will never be alone again

Somewhere in this world

I know there is a soulmate to me

Just the problem of time

The time haven't come yet

I'm believing.

The feeling someday it will pour back by someone destined to be

Only in love, the feeling is needed

In this world, the feeling is needless

Kind and care just put aside

Until I meet someone who deserve it

Smile no matter what...

Now I realized...

When I feel lonely...

I want to find someone to chat...

There really don't have one...

Everyone is busy for their studies...

For their game...

For their partner...

For any stuff...

But not for me...

I spend too much time on the one I love...

And lost all the friends I have...

But my love never cherish what I have done for them...

Most of the people after break...

They have friends will be around them still...

But I have to stand by my own...

Face all the things by my own...

Because I was spending too much of myself to my love...

Sometimes... I wonder... Issit worthy?

I never regret to be with them and pay all my best...

Even no one ask me to do that...

I'm doing my best as I'm trying to do all the right thing no matter how...

I don't care what others tell... I'm fighting for the long lasting relationship...

I even said that I need no friend but only someone care about me...

In the end... It's become a gamble...

A unworthy gamble...

That I bet myself on the table of love...

All In for this gambling...

When I lose, I will lose everything...

Argh... it's okie...

As I all in, I have prepared for this end isn't it?

I'm used to be loser in my life...

Nevermind...

Even no one can beside me...

I will stand up by myself...

I don't like to show others I'm weak also...

I will still do my best...

Regardless of what others' talks...

I will be the all winner in the end...

Even I lose again...

At least I can said

I'm the one who tried to be the best in this world...

I'm different with others...

No matter what...

Sorrow... Emptiness...

I will take it over... Hang on my shoulder and keep going...

I will tell others...

Even with this weigh I have taken...

I will not be beaten down!

Smile... No matter what...

Even you're not happy in fact...

Hiding and lying to self is the best tools to overcome all the things...^^

Vanitas

Vanitas

Which means "Emptiness" in Latin

I'm used to talk and smile

But the emptiness in heart never filled up

Even I wish someone can fill up the hole in my heart

But I have already used to be alone

OR I just can't find anyone to fill this up for me anymore

Being so tough already

Doesn't need anybody comfort and accompany

(It's good if have? haha xD)

But the my heart has already been emptied

Innate Personality

I'm like a cat

It's like an innate personality

I can make no change

I love to live like a cat

I love to act like a cat

Love to manja the one I love

Love to play and kacao people with my paw

A cat which is loyalty

A cat which loves water

"I'm a neko soul who is hidden under a human body...

Waiting for someone who I can manja forever...

For so long I have wander around the city alone...

Yet I believe there will be somewhere belong to me...

And there will be someone that will revive and take care of my soul...

I will finally be a neko without hiding once again...

Meowie... ^^"

Humanoid

God is crying

But I'm no longer have my tear

After all I have done

It's all just a stupid effort which nobody cares

Sorry

I have lost my heart

I'm no longer the man I was

Even I can tell you all about this

I feel no sadness

It's all emptiness left

I'm no longer lovely...

Just a human

Without a heart.

If this is how the world should be

God

Please don't make me into this world next time

You gave me an angel heart

But I'm not angel anyhow.

It just meant to break over here.

Dying Wish

God bless me

Not letting me being a heartless angel