Heartless

I'm working hard nowadays

Doesn't stop my hand on works

Doesn't stop on trying to call for supplier and retailer

It seems good

I'm fullfilling my times

I'm doing all good

I'm fine, I work hard for my future

My future will be all fine if I work hard

But

Why I feel so empty...?

Emptiness...

It's getting bigger and bigger whenever I stop my hand...

I can't sleep...

I stay in front computer

But doing nothing...

I want to chat with someone

But I don't know what should I say...

Or maybe I don't know who should I find to chat...

Even I chat to someone I loved before

I have nothing to talk with her...

A merely greeting is what I can do...

Another her

I once thought she might be a different one

The one who can make me feel alive

But I think... I was wrong again...

I'm becoming more soulless after she left

It's like

"I'm used to this"

I already used to this kind of feeling

I used to the bad end

And I didn't say much this time

I have already become lazy to say anything

I feel

I'm starting to lose my emotion

I'm no longer feel love...

I'm no longer feel happiness...

I'm no longer feel sadness...

I'm no longer cry...

It's all fell apart now...

I'm no longer feel the existence of me...

I didn't want to ask why anymore

I feel lazy to everything

I just do what I should do

But

I have no feeling for what I'm doing now...

I'm just being

So heartless for now

Am I...

Completely lost my heart?

After all I have done...