控制情绪

今天也不知道做么

突然被这样搞一下就变得好down...

完蛋了... 心又被勾着了...

不好再这样子了吧...?

怎样说她还不是我的女朋友...

我这样也太快了吧...?

就算是也不可以这样吧?

你还要重复以前的错误吗?

要控制一下了... 镇定点...

要控制一下了... 冷静点...

有什么不开心的倒头睡去~ 打game去~

这不就是最佳良药吗?

就算是双鱼都好... 不能拿星座当借口...

该改的坏习惯就要去改...

不要一直被心牵着走...

要理智... 要学会控制自己的情绪... 要努力...

记得... 你是男生... 你是那个要保护人的人...

不该是被保护的那个...

21岁了啊... 成年了咧...

不能再那么幼稚了...

你需要保护你爱的人...

而不是让你爱的人觉得难受...

就算不开心都好... 都要挂着笑容...

这样人家看到你才会开心啊...

要让全部人都开心的...

知道吗? ^^

啊啊... 加多一样要努力的东西...

就算再那么在乎一样东西都好...

都要努力控制情绪，不因为在乎而把自己弄得不开心了~ ^^

P/s:

今天运气算不错的...

不开心罢了就有朋友突然来陪我了...

开头对他语气还有些粗鲁

不好意思哦... =P

到最后大家还是笑到蛮大声的...

哈哈哈... 真的蛮喜欢天枰的...

来得真是时候啊~ XD

还有今天突然很大胆的跟爸妈直说

(还是讲她只是我的朋友，不过很明显知道不是那么简单了啦

真的当他们是傻的咩，怎样嘛至少活了四五十年 XD)

没想到他们的接受率还蛮大一下

撇掉其他发生的事不说

至少下次带她回家不用担心老豆老母不开心了咯~

我老妈还叫我不要做人的奴隶等下辛苦的会是我咧

别像我大哥这样

不过

我不像我大哥这样

我就不是他弟弟了咯...

呵呵呵...

鬼叫他是天蝎我是双鱼

我们都是水象的... 不给人欺负好像很难啦...

虽然我跟他都没什么交流...

不过怎样讲还是两兄弟嘛...

一样是正常的啦~~~~ (根本在找借口... 呵呵呵... XD)

I'm no longer the man I was

你的一句

"我好想你哦...我能不能再做你的干妹妹?"

在我眼中出现也只能觉得讽刺

不好意思，好人真的有极限...

我以前努力对你好的时候

你不经考虑就把我丢下了

我最需要你的时候

你在哪里了?

为了你我放弃了那么多

放弃了男生的尊严苦苦求你留下

放弃了男生的尊严宁愿傻傻地跟别人share着自己爱的人

傻傻地只是想等待你看到我的存在

说过不会让我伤心的你去哪了?

难道你不知道我花了多少时间多少机会就为了度过这个过渡期

因为你我的心都封闭

我做了多少后悔的事才知道我只是自己骗自己

你说过不会骗我

你却把我的希望全都打碎了

知不知道你差点把我摧毁了?

你知不知道当我心被你打碎地满地

我只是能一个人躲在角落慢慢整理

哭着亲手把一块一块分裂的心脏给粘合回来

而你... 有着一帮你不珍惜的好朋友...

有着不管你怎样做还是爱你的好男友...

你知不知道... 那时我除了你... 我什么都没有?

我还要在下雨天里对你笑... 就因为我不想你看到我在流泪...

我还要戴着面具在你伤心时安慰着你...

其实自己已经泪流满面?

在我世界终于找到平衡的时候

你又想来搞破坏?

你的干妹妹是什么意思?

我有女朋友了还要对你很好很好take care着你

继续做你的maid?继续做你的toy?

你想玩的时候我就给你扯东扯西?

不需要的时候就丢在篮子推进黑暗的角落?

不好意思...

我不傻了...

我的心只容得下一个人

我恨别人做的事我是不会做的

你没有想过你的男朋友会怎样想吗?

你以为我讲的都是假的吗?

我告诉过你, 我只会对一个人忠心

我对你那么努力的时候你没珍惜

当我走了你却要求要回被你硬硬打碎的真心?

别傻了... 我笨... 不过你却不值得我的笨...

我不会再对你那么笨...

我心装的不会再是你了...

就算你做得几多... 我心里深处对你的恨意是不会消失的...

何况你是什么都不会做的人...

只是会在失去后悔的人... 我没兴趣...

因为在你拥有时永远不会珍惜...

那么为什么我要做你拥有的人...

别再跟我说什么当我的干妹妹

我最大限度只能跟你做朋友

一个什么都不会跟你说的朋友

因为我太清楚你是什么人

我的话你根本听不下去

你只是一个净要人付出自己却不会做什么的自私鬼

你的好，都是暂时的，都是假的

你在我心里不留下什么

别再吵了，你只会让我恨你更多

我心里有人了，也有会关心我的人了

就算没有，我一个人也活得下去

再也不会卑微自己接受你这假意的好

I'm no longer the man I was

This is what you made me

不要怪我无情

要怪怪你自己自私

是你先放弃我的

不是我先离开你的

我捉到那么辛苦

你说放就放

你现在要捉回？

对不起，我做不到

我只会爱我觉得值得爱的人

我只会在我爱的人面前做个傻瓜

你，不值得我再对你傻

No U Turn

In this new year I found my new path...

I will work hard to fight for this new path

I'm not doing my best for past

Now I will do my best for this

I wish there is needless to U turn once again

I left the past behind

Future is what I'm fighting for

Hold it, and not afraid

~遇见你~

"怎么会遇到你?"

我也不知道

我也以为我很难再喜欢谁爱上谁

没想到这个时候遇上一个酱可爱的傻瓜

那个感觉不知道为什么又出现了

跟她讲话不需要再担心什么

看着她我笑也可以变得不需要理由

不知不觉那个累垮的心又开始跳动了

突然间我觉得不大敢再看着她

可能把自己真实那面暴露了，害羞了吧 XD

(耳朵都红了... 还给她看到下... aiz... 吃焦... T_T)

今天被她欺负到够够力

我的弱点都给她摸清摸透了

为什么酱乖会去跟她讲？

我也不知道，可能我真的被她仙到了

aiz... 看来还是又要给某某个女的压着欺负了...

鬼叫我总是对喜欢的那个没抵抗力... T_T

好喜欢跟她在一起的感觉...

我也不知道为什么突然变到那么大胆了...

就忍不住想抱她亲她... 完蛋了我... 真的变成色狼了... 呵呵呵...

听着"That's why you go away"她指着我的时候我真的好想跟她说...

"Baby you will never have the chance to ask me why I go away

Because I will never do that~"

不过现在我只好对她唱着"Right here waiting"咯...

她应该get不到为什么我会听那首歌... 呵呵呵... =P

突然觉得很多东西要努力去改一下

减肥啦，练muscle啦，早睡啦，驾车啦...

blah blah blah... 突然变得好忙下...

不过还真的忙得蛮开心下...

身体也不能乱乱来了省得人家还要考虑更久...呵呵 =P

希望真的能等到那一天

我能牵着她手到处逛

跟我爸妈朋友讲

"这是我女朋友"

呵呵呵... XP

Another Chance

Eyes that are looking at me

I can't face myself to you

Because I scare I might get addicted

I know, along the time we have

Even it's not long

But it actually makes some changes in my heart

Actually

I'm afraid doesn't lesser than yours

I afraid once my heart has given out

You are the another one who won't take care of it again

My heart might fell from the mid air and broke again

I think you didn't know that, how much I hate that feeling

Even in the deepest of my heart,

how much I hate those people who made it happened

I remember everything, every pain I felt

How I have forsaken by the one I love the most

Beg them don't go like a beggar losing all the pride of man I should have

Yet they push me away, I fell on the ground

Call their name for thousand times but they are deaf to my SOS

In the end I stand by myself with tons of pain

I afraid all of these will happened once again, how much I scare, I think you feel the same

Yet, I don't give up for what I'm wishing

I wish for the good end with my effort

I don't believe it must be always the same

There must be someone can see me, cherish all I have done

But along with all the failures it doesn't break me apart...

I'm walking on the way I want even everybody is telling me "You're stupid!"

I still believe there must be someone, someone can know why I'm doing all these things

Now, I met you

Your eyes tell me, you might be that someone

Your acts tell me, you might be the different one

Please don't afraid, I will be that different one to you

Everyone has past, I don't really mind what is happened in the past

As long as we work hard for the future, it will be fine

Give me and you another chance

Let's see whether we can be work for each other

Let us to be each other's shelter

Issit alright? I'm just waiting for your nodded...

The heart is already emptied for your resident

My eyes are opening and I laugh

But where is the happiness?

My eyes are closed and I cry

But I don't know why I'm crying...

Cried and Laughed

What is left in the heart?

I don't know...

"I don't mind..."

"I used to it..."

Has already frozen my heart

The flame doesn't burning anymore

Why I'm laughing?

Why I'm crying...?

Maybe it just a simply emotion expression

It's Time To Get Back

So long no blogging already

This blog where I leave so long

I wish I will never back

I wish I will never speak the truth of me again

But still it can't be prevented...

I'm quite busy nowadays

Keep on organizing one and another gathering

To fill up my emptiness and loneliness

Yea... I'm really able to do it...

I have the ability to gather all the people from different area...

Hahaha...

I'm smiling along all the gathering I have made

Doing all the different things I want to try before...

But... Am I really smiling...?

No... it's so fake... even I can feel it's fake...

Nobody knows... And I don't want to tell anybody...

I used to alone... even lot of people is around me...

But no one touch my heart...

Is there any meaning?

I'm able to gather lot of people

But I'm always not able to see an only person I want to see...

Sometimes I feel so ridiculous...

Now I can't even know inside my heart...

Is there still anyone stays?

Or I'm lying to myself that's somebody stays?

I can't speak the truth to anybody anymore...

Not even the one I love the most

Or the one closest...

I don't know why I will be like this...

So hiding myself...

Or I just too afraid of hurt...

I close myself up...

Until no one can see me...

And not even me can control anymore...

Why I'm crying?

I don't know what is the cause...

Love? or Life?

Maybe I'm already being so cold to everything

The heart is crying because of the fallen of me

That his owner doesn't hear his voice anymore

That his owner doesn't care his will anymore

His owner choosing the path of cold

Choose to forsake everything even his truth self

I can hear the voice of my heart no more

And I found no one to teach me how to do that anymore...

Just be it...

I don't have to change myself because of emptiness...

Or I just suit to the life...

I no need anybody else...

I can live by myself...

Get back to the way... get back to the duty of life...

It's the time... Even you have forsaken yourself...

You must completed the task God has given to you...

"This world is full of ugliness and chaos

Human within this world who has the right to be sad?"

I, don't have the right to be sad... too...