Lonely Relationship

It might sound funny and immature...

But sometimes I just wish someone will accompany me...

Why can't you be that someone...?

I thought even message, calling or chatting at least

But seem like you just not the one who will do that for me...?

It's not about distance problem

It's the feeling of nothing

Even you said you love me and treat me as your boyfriend

But I feel NOTHING from you...

You might hold the girlfriend position for me

But you didn't really treat me as your boyfriend...

Isn't it?

Can you don't let me feel alone with you... please...?

If I can trust

I will

But problem is

I'm so protective for myself after all I have gone through

Please

Understand me why I'm being so protective

If you love me

Please give me more confident on you

I'm trying to trust you fully

This really takes my courage to do that

Don't say I'm not trusting on you

I'm really trying my best as I love you

I love you

But how about you?

When I say "I miss you"

I just wish you can beside of me

When I say "I love you"

I just wish you can love me more

When this two sentences are hard to come out from my mouth

Because I afraid you can't beside me

Yet you won't love me more...

Even all the things are done

And I wish to do more for you

But will you love me more?

Sometimes I don't say doesn't mean I don't mean it

But it's just too hard to say out

I just too afraid I'm the one who hurt in the end again...

Issit I think so much?

Or the love just can't last long?

Feeling so unsafe to love...

Why...?

Maybe I just can't forget how I hurt before...

I'm so need of love yet I'm so scare of love...

Hahaha...

Ridiculous me...

Sometimes just do your best

And no matter the end is bad or good

Just don't care about it

Good, you stay

Bad, just leave away

Invisible Love

It's hurt to have an invisible love

I just wish I can tell you "I Love You" openly...

I will wait you... Please make my believe come truth once...

Others have disappointed me...

Wish you are the one worth me to wait...

"I Love You" is easy to speak...

But it takes so hard to tell someone "I will wait you"...

Please cherish it... would you...?

I'm so afraid to love... really so afraid...

Because it hurts to see the one I love so much leave me one by one...

And I'm wondering what fault have I done...?

Suffering within the cycle of pain...

Makes my heart become lifeless and lifeless...

What makes me so pain?

Just because I really love someone...

Who can persuade himself with such pathetic reason?

I know no one...